Tuesday, November 20, 2012

Hopefully more than stopping by...

It has been a while since I posted last and a lot has happened since then.

I am on a quest. Have you ever had a notion that there is something missing? Have you tried to find out what that something is only to hit a brick wall? I have, on more than one occasion.

That brings me to my quest. I am on a quest to find JOY. JOY in everything.

This is not an easy thing to do but it can be done. Sometimes this means removing yourself from situations that bring you stress and grief. Sometimes it even means declining invitations and checking your past to see if you need to change relationships that have strayed.

For those who know me I have had one heck of a summer. My mom had been diagnosed with cancer. I became her health care proxy and in turn spent many days arguing with nurses, doctors and family members to make sure that she was getting the proper care. I spent A.LOT of time arguing with her about her care and health as well. Can you argue with a 74 year old woman who is set in her ways? YES, if you do it correctly. REGARDLESS…I digress.

This is about ME. That was step number one in my quest to find JOY. Find ME and what I want, need, love and cherish, and work on getting it.

One huge way that I have accomplished my first steps to finding JOY is through exercise. I NEVER would have told you that exercise is key, but it releases so much energy and pent up frustration that even I was surprised to find out how much exercise is needed for JOY.

I started walking about a year and a half ago and now I am walking up to 30 miles a week. That means that if I had been on roads the whole way I could be in Altamont, KS now. It also means that my health has greatly improved and I have lost 35 pounds.  I also ran a 1/2 marathon in September.  One of the reasons, I started my quest but I will get into that another day.

Another big step in finding JOY is finding those that you love and telling them. Love is something that I very strongly believe in. Love is one of those words that are thrown around by most but I believe that if you have a relationship with someone than there is a degree of love. I love my friends and I love husband and kids. It is a different kind of love for each but is love regardless.

If I haven’t seen you lately, I love you. Even if I have and didn’t get a chance to tell you, I love you.

I may seem a bit off to most people while I am on this quest but one thing that you can know for sure is that when I have a quest to conquer, I conquer.

The next few months will be very trying as I go through the needful steps but I have made up my mind and that is what needs to be done.

I will keep you posted.

1 comment:

mCat said...

An honorable quest. I'm happy and proud of you for the steps already taken!

I love you!