Monday, November 28, 2011

Oh, happy freaking day!

Well, well, well…I am about to become the whiny arse bitchy blogger that you don’t want to read. I don’t do it often but lately it has been hard not to bitch and complain. But it’s my birthday and I will cry if I want to.

And I have done just that twice!

Really now, today is my birthday and I am just putting this out there in blogger world and don’t want or expect that you will respond. You will most likely just shake your head and go on to the next blog to read.

What have I done wrong? If you don’t know the answer to this question then neither do I.

Back history…

My in-laws have always given everyone a card with a check for $40 for their birthday. We had dinner there Thursday and my MIL invited us back to have cake and ice cream on Sunday afternoon.

We arrived around 4 pm and we had ice cream cake. (I don’t like ice cream cake) {crap, I am starting to cry about this again}

After cake my MIL handed me a box with a card. I opened the card and it was empty. I unwrapped the box and inside was three fake candles with the $4.99 price tag still on the box. I felt like I had been kicked in the stomach.

We went home. I tried to stay and not be ungrateful but I couldn’t.

After getting home and sitting down for dinner, we as a family discussed Christmas. I suggested to the kids, that wanted a very expensive present, that we do a family gift instead of filling up the stockings with things that they did not need. At that time my husband informed the kids that “we” didn’t need any presents for Christmas. I don’t know why I snapped except for the fact that I was tired of being overlooked and pushed aside. I stood up threw my plate across the kitchen and told all four of them that they could shove their presents up their arses and forget that I even brought up the subject.

I then went into my bedroom, crawled under the sheets and cried myself to sleep.

I am turning off the comments today because I don’t want to hear happy birthdays or that I am right or wrong, I just needed to put it somewhere.

Wednesday, November 23, 2011


There has been so much going on in my life that I realized that months have slipped by and I don’t remember where half of them have gone. I recently celebrated my 20th wedding anniversary and for shits and giggles we tried to remember our favorite things that happened during each of those years. Funny thing was that the birth years of my three children were the three distinctive years that I could remember and not much beyond that. So sad, my husband decided it was not a fun game so we quit very early on.

But I am now looking on the cusp of my 43rd birthday (Monday) and have tried to put my life into perspective. Where am I? Am I happy? Am I healthy? Do I want to be here or somewhere else?

So, I decided that I would do a Thanksgiving post of the things that have truly been a blessing in my life these past few months.

I am used to chickens in my life but today it is turkeys.

1. I made it through the 8th grade year with Peanut, although he needed to attend summer school. He is now in a vocational technical high school and doing FANTASTIC.

2. I found that even though all summer we thought it was our last year at the camp, we have the chance to rent it next year (and maybe a few years after that). This may actually give us the chance to build.

3. I set myself a goal of 20 pounds by my 20th anniversary and even though I did not reach that goal (15 pounds instead) I feel so much healthier and stronger because of it.

4. I climbed a mountain. Literally, I climbed a mountain. This was completed and although I think I could have done it a few months and 15 pounds heavier, it was a great accomplishment.

5. Butter has stepped out of his comfort zone and secured a lead in the Willy Wonka production at his school.

6. I survived a major car crash and with only a month and a half of physical therapy and doctor’s appointments I am back in the saddle again.

7. I have a job, so many don’t now a day, but I do. It drives me crazy sometimes but all in all I am happy I have this job.

8. I have developed some strong friendships with those that had built walls before. I know that I am a strong willed person but I love breaking walls and finding that there is a great side on the other side.

I will post more thanks but now I need to get back to work or I won’t have #7.